I don't feel very creative or safe lately. Lately, so much of what I write or create feels meaningless with the current state of affairs in the background, humming like a constant threat.
I have scrapped so much content, and I usually tend to create for the practice of creating.
Then my older son asked me, “Uhma are you writing about what you are feeling + dealing with?”
That’s when I realized I have been busy numbing myself -a type of disassociation or distracting myself to avoid the overwhelm.
Some thoughts:
1) A level of safety if necessary to create
2) Safety can also be found within through practice + discernment
3) Sometimes, we must not run from the fear we feel but toward it to understand
3) Sometimes, because we don’t feel safe, we need speak on that.
Confession: I don’t feel safe lately.
In process: I am building an inner sanctuary of safety to face my fears.